I can't wait! I grew up loving these guys!!!

I just happened to see something that was so awesome that it brought many tears to my eyes. I was watching TV with Nathan's family and we happened to stumble upon this gathering of the Chiefs in Canada because the nation of Canada has finally apologized to all the Native Americans for all they have been put thru. Finally. Canada and Australia are the only two countries that have done this. I know that the US will be one the last to apologize if at all, and that sucks. It was so neat to see all the chiefs of the many nations in Canada including Nate's tribe the Matis, come together in a circle and speak.

I believe that something is going to happen in 2013 as the Mayans have stated,and I believe the nations of Canada and Australia are stepping in the right direction to save the world. The blood and tears from our people have soaked into the earth and are now a part of it. We must honor them.

So, I don't know about anyone else but I was an idiot and actually thought I was going to get something called a Stimulus payment. They set up all these fancy schedules to show when I should get it and so forth...Yeah right! I was supposed to have the payment on the 9th and here it is the 12th and no payment. Thanks Bush! Anyway, I wish they never filled my head with the illusion that I was getting this stimulus payment. Oh well, just another big tease in the big game called Life...So lame....

Meh

I HOPE YOU ALL HAVE A WONDERFUL THANKSGIVING!!!

LOVE,
MELISSA

ok. You don't have to read this if you don't want to because I am just going to vent about my life right now and it could be rather boring to many but I need to get it out, and writing usually helps me. Right now I am feeling alot like Claire of Six Feet Under...I am getting the picture that I am not allowed to have any kind of human emotion in many moments of my life, and if I do I have so many people looking at me like I am crazy and have no right to feel the way I feel. Everyone expects me to always be okay and to always be there the strong Melissa everyone knows. If you know me at all you know that when I am quiet it means I don't wanna talk about what is going on with me. I am the type of person who likes to go over everything in my head and then speak, and I hate sharing any drama in my life with people cause I hate drama.

Today I had a very hard morning I wont go into details but if you know me you probably know why it was so hard this morning, and I come to work and I am feeling down. I am very nice and happy to see all our clients. I go to lunch and I am very to myself today. When it is called to my attention that I need to "buck up" and leave my problems behind me and do whatever I need to do to have more energy this afternoon. And on and on...I just stared at this person and let me tell you if heads could explode by the power of my mind....ahhhhhh I just don't know how to deal with my issues if I am not allowed to...

I am a living person who is allowed to feel any damn way I want to.. I never let it interfear with my work and my job lately has been a huge part of my problem lately. They can take the breathing and thought changing excersises and *&*&^%%@#$#. I am in no mood to hear it, and it doesn't work when you are forced. I am just so sick and damn tired of being expected to be a robot who lives to serve. Fuck that!

TO WANDA!!!!!!

May you all have a devious and fun Friday the 13th! I know I will...hee hee...

Does anybody need an air conditioner?? We are selling one for cheap and it works good. Trades possible..We are broke and need to sell this thing ASAP. We already have one in our room and this is an extra one. Let me know...

yay holiday!!!Gonna eat some barbque and drink some cold beers! I am in need so some chill time! Who is with me?